हाँ बहुत वेला हूँ दोपहर के एक बजे । अभी-अभी ऐम-टी के लैब-टैस्ट में 8 की जगह तीन नम्बर बड़वाकर आया हूँ और उस समय काफी उदास हो गया था, पर अब थीक है - काइन्ड-औफ़ कोइ परवाह नहीं है । सब थीक है बस ये हिन्दी लिखने में बहुत तकलीफ हो रही है - मतलब उतनी तेज़ नहीं लिख पा रहा जितना कि सोचा था । चलो अभी खाना खाने जाना है - बस थोड़ा और लिखते हैं । अभी खाने के बाद क्या करना है ? चलचित्र ? वैल अगर और कुछ नही मिला तो शायद यहीं या फिर एनिमे । वैसे मैं कोइ काम करने की सोचूंगा क्या ? पतानहीं, देखते हैं । चलो चलते हैं अभी खाना खाने । समय अभी - 1:00 पी-ऐम ।

चली भैया हिन्दी में आज तो ब्लौग ।
कल मेरा MT का पेपर है और मैं यहाँ ऐसे टाइम पास कर रहा हूँ ।
चलो वैसे physics और chemistry थोड़ा-बहुत तो पड़ ही लिया है । चलो कोशिश करते हैं कि एक-डेड बजे तक सब हो जाए - मतलब जितना भी हो जाए थीक ही है । इससे ज़्यादा कर भी क्या सकते हैं ! बस इसे यहीं रोकता हूँ और वैसे ये हिन्दी लिखना भी बहुत समय खाता है । चलो भाई अलविदा ।
Thank you everyone , thanx a lot !!!

Today is Saturday, 25th November, 2006. Went to Delhi today and came back !!! without even going to home once. But one thing is there, all happiness and sadness in the world is relative. Maybe not, sadness and happiness generally have the same criteria, the same basic criteria but still there is something there that is there and that is luck maybe - yes kind of makes sense - I am thinking what I am thinking because of the position I am in - I feel sadness and happiness relative to that and someone else feels them according to the position they are in. It's just a reaction to a favourable situation according to your mentality which in turn is maintained by situations. So it doesn't matter - you don't have control over the situation you are in (maybe) and neither do you have control over whether the situation turns out in favour or not - so I am happy - kinda no more sadness in not being able to do something (if it's because of circumstances not of my laziness) and kinda feel good everything goes right but not wrong if it goes wrong because you can always take a turn in life - anyway the life is (supposedly) finite - even if it is not, does it matter - just do what you want to and fuck everything else - well your emotions won't let you do that - just being cheerful in life is not possible - even if it I am now not interested in that - obviously you should think about things (prefferably not worry maybe) but you won't be thinking about the things about which you are worried about now.
So go through the life after thinking what matters, and you will find something new, well maybe not - this is not a fairy tale - greater knowledge could bring greater grief (who am I lecture which I attended some time ago) - but anyway - it makes sense to acknowledge whose part has come itself to you and it makes sense to see through your life - what the heck is it and what's it made up of and what exactly matters - I think the last question is the most important question and should be answered - hey what's the meaning of should by the way - well anyway I (now) don't like this word so let's guss it and send a new one in stead - which one should I send - ummmm - should I send - SHOULD I ? Well this should can go the hell and I am not taking care of this word and replacing it with anything else.
So the jist - well actually have to analyze but maybe - you are going the wrong way in your life if you take a look at it - you just find that this is not the way you want to go - you want to go some other way - this may not be the best way, whatever best means - well limiting it to - this may not be the best happy/"feel good" way - and maybe you don't even want that one (and maybe that one's a contradiction) - but anyway you just feel you should - na - want to go some other way - and what does that path hold ?? - does it matter ?
La La La - another thing, time passes, thoughts pass, great men pass (whatever great means) and so will this thought ! A ripple in time wave - nothing else - of no importance (whatever importance means), a subprocess thinking too much of itself - pathetic, pathetic, pathetic !!!
Me : But does the above thing matter ? ?? : Pathetic !
Me : I am a sub-process so what is wrong if I am too proud -- the process cannot go on without a subprocess !
?? : Do you really think so ?
Me : Well no, but does that matter - if I am ok with being over-proud and die without any brunt of it ?
?? : Can't you think anything beyond "does that matter" ?
Me : Maybe but does that matter ?
?? : Think this way does it matter to think does it matter or not ? (Maybe this ?? was me only)
Me : For that I will have to think does it matter !!!
?? : Think beyond ??!!
Me : What's beyond ?
?? : Does it matter ?
Me : Well tell the meaning atleast !
?? : Does it matter ?
Me : Don't know, haven't thought and haven't realized !
?? : Can you think beyond your thinking ? Does there exist a beyond ? Is there a more meaningful question that "does it even matter?" ?
Me : Does it matter ?
?? :
Me : May be .. So just let it go, kind of ??!!!
?? : If you can find out whatever all think meant - congratulation to you and if not then keep yourself satisfied with an appropriate answer to does it even matter ? ?
Me : Ok, cya around, bye !
Disappearance is an art that can't be learnt by everyone - coz thoso who do disappear !
Non-existing is a supreme art that can't be learnt by anyone - coz if you do - who am I talking to !! have I gone nuts talking to myself !!
Time pass : go to hell, I am sleeping this definition I am not writing but one I shall - from my experience - kindof umm, maybe:
Laziness - the virtue by which a living being - of the same whatever level as a human being - does not (evev) do something which he/she/*e wants to do. [* is used here as a wild card and can be replaced by any number of characters except spaces]

Today is Friday, the last one of the second last month of the year 2006.
So what am I goin to do now -- nothing, just sleep as I have to go to Delhi tomorrow - for what nothing much - infact it's kind of a trip as for me it's not worth the time spent on it (infact the time spent is not the matter but the way the time that will be spent in the journey will be killing). Anyway I see it as a trip which I have to take - and I get atleast the advantage that my project will start sooner, maybe.
In any case - today's best thing - we got the stepper motors working (maybe and the we doesn't include me) and something amazing was happening - the motor was working whenever it wanted to - the circuit being the same, it worked for some time interval and just started working and then stopped - as so ever it wished - or more properly as so ever we wished, being more sensitive to Rishi. It started when we wanted to or when we brought Rishi's hand closer to it with the story for it's stopping being the same.
Ok so we are done with today's story - let's search something else - ok I am writing this blog on my transparent window of notepad2 instead of the blogger window -- easy way - even if the window doesn't open now I can write now and post it whenever it is. Ease of manipulation an anyway it fells good when you are typing on a transparent window.
OK before ending - we had mess veg grub and we have rejected the microcontroller available in the lab and I thought I would also make a new blog which would not be for anything - so a more refined thing - rather than a piece of junk ( I seriously do not beleive this blog is a piece of junk ). So let's see if I do it or not.
Without taking much time --- hey I like typing --- I would like to end this file but before that a thing -- looks have a phychological effect so they have effect on your thinking -- so that would apply to you as well --- well think mathematically -- only if you see yourself in the mirror very often :). JUst kidding/joking/whatever.
And now the end of it -- the song going on/ was just going on is/was somewhere I belong - or that was what he was saying in the end of the song, and the song going on now is "zindagi hai duya to kya".
To bye , tc (not turbo c but take care and if you had thought otherwise, it's vice versa ), sayonara, come to office yourself (khuda-afice), achcha alvida (good bye) and aise hi (so on), etc ..
Time to go the dn I me felling sleepy now da ta (not data but tata oh ta ta -- or good bye, jstu fellign sleepy)
k bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye
no k but ok from now on -- ok !!!

waise to main kal hi likna chahta tha post par cp aur mt ka test aur raat k baje hoon sade gyarah and you haven't even started --- to kya - waise aaj mt dia - jo exp choda wahi aaya - some grating; some = d**.. don't remember the name right now but anyways - poocha kya karna hai - khush tha ki nahi aata hua experiment itna badiya ja raha hai - but something went wrong - d**.. grating constant didn't have the dimension of length but I wrote it in armstrong and even converted that to meter - par chalta hai paper khatam hone k baad to -infinity bhi aayein to bhi chalta hai
and aal this for what -- just some course doing which I get so sleepy that I can't resist it nomore
anyways sad / bad things aside and let's look at our project for a moment -- micromouse for iitb techfest
dekhte hain -- abhi to koi kaam shuru nahi hua par aaj karenge
lab jaenge vi and dekhenge kya hota hai
and maine abhi tak microcontroller ki book abhi udha k bhi nahi dekhi and st7 pe search bhi nahi maara
dhoda bahut to aana chahiye microcontoller k baare maine nahi to boora lagta hai
chalo abhi search maarke fir continue karte hain likhna
chalo ho rahi hai search
to kya irada hai hamara --- abhi to kutch nahi and ek do seniors ko dekh k BITS ka level to nahi bada aakhon mein par haan abhi sochne pe zindagi aur bhi bekar kar rakhi hai aisa lagta hai -- karta kya hoon main poora din -- kinda time paas -- jaisa abhi kar raha hoon :) ?!
ok some distraction to this
let's see how -- maybe hmmm...... - well this is where my blog ends and let's change the song
red eyes are coz they not any other color -- or may be just coz of the mechanism of the receptor -- or mixed / hybrid -- or maybe coz red is the color that that --- aah time paas nice try but ye meri typing speed fast kyon nahi hoti and main itni baar backspace kyon dabata hoon ?
k now let's go -- bye !!!

ah, back to the blog after a really long time
let's see today is the 2nd of november and last time I came here was june
so what do I have 2day, nothing just have to study for the maths exam 2moro -- the course is terrific - not in the good sense but some what like hell you can say -- BITS has this special property of making us bright students lazy -- no compulsory attendence -- and you open the book just b4 the exam to know that there are some symbols you have to first decode to understand the thing and where do you land up -- wanting not to study -- but you have to -- you can't just write nothing in the exam -- you don't feel good and if you go this way -- you are just going to screw your grade -- so I think this stratergy needs to be improved -- no not starting early -- start late -- not as late as today -- do in small quanta -- and try not to do as much yourself as possible -- go take some "advice" -- any way no one uses them themselves -- so just do this thing, if possible obviously, know what kinda questions are going to come coz you aren't going to even try understand the things anyway -- so get how it is going ok!

now so what's the final strategy : do the neccesary according to what's worth it and don't be lazy in atlest this. That's it : this is the raaz of being active in academics -- well its better than atleast thinking that this much is not worth it when your study has futile parts you know and when you misunderstand things -- so confirm with many people - and when you do the things efficiently -- let me right it the mathematics way:
let x be the effort to study the effort to worth ratio and a domain D (ie limited values/range of effort and worth) and y be the suitable effort acc. to this study but y is suitable not if that gives the best ratio in the domain but (x+y) does -- so can't spend much on x too -- so how do you decide without calculating -- let's do some - x>0 ye and do as much that that doesn't bother you and if y done doesn't bother you then done else ??? well go on the feeling -- that is all you can do -- and anyway le morale de le storie est it is not the best the matter but the one that doesn't bother -- so changing your tolerance can be an Idea -- you mean study -- no way -- so what else can b changed -- negative tolerance -- well that is ignorance -- but ignorance is bliss -- how do I know -- don't judge something you see/read/hear anywhere (i remember moi repri paper -- the newspapers thing), ok anyway - i just forgot what I was writing and without remem -- ah I rememberd it -- so bad -- anyways let's continue.
so what's next in this pitiful life -- well going by the adjective there is pity -- ye -- but who's pitying ? -- no-one - so that should be a pitiless life -- so pitiful -- anyway piti(pity*) is just a four letter word (some notpron thing)
and now the best thing of the day -- it going to be over -- ye
well you might be thinkginijfkdjsjieff erhejfj he 0-- random thought you know -- some techica fkdjkljldjieoj elej l insuffiect memory , data losdk termi g
system restart -- well can you do that to a human well my mind doesn't think what I want it to -- some not so well known programs just use my brain whenever it's used and the usage is controlled by the system lazy process which uses most -- ok kinda doesn't let others use -- so random thought --- well I don't think they are -- I just munch upon other people's thought -- well I have some of my own -- but they are from the time I thought -- may be by force or by chance but I did think -- anyways -- random shutdown might take place anytime -- mind if a very inefficent machine and that is what makes us superior to machines -- hey man I am talking bullshit (EME or the english movie effect coz I have been seeing a lot of movies lately) -- um the best -- well actualy the only one I rememver at this is (coz of fresh memory) is "kung fu hustle"
ok one more para end -- what end - jfdkjdsjedf djfjkdj dfs somehting dfjds is osf a hi value -- no value for the atmostphere -- there goes -- I am dying --- help me -- I got an heartattack and no helped me, if I would have been alive I would have got another seeing this -- well that was a nice one -- not completely my own -- not at all completely my own - but my own ....
thanx for your etnemnrtianet mr. smith -- you can djfklje8e898989 mayday mayday -- charlie 007 hitler here any backup condoms plz.........