feeling very frustrated and don't feel like I wanna spend the rest of my life doing what I don't wanna do .. but as if many people have that option
waise finished claymore today and cried the 2nd time in anime (in the last(26th) episode) and in icup - no progress -- none at all
and also seen heidi before going to food king -- had some feeling of sadness (questions and etc.) while seeing it and spilled some horliks (when the glass was not even half full) and wet my pyjama.

(just now ongoing song(winamp) )
mana toofan k aage nahi chalta zor kisika
mana toofan k aage nahi chalta zor kisika
maujon ka dosh nahi hai , ye dosh hai aur kisika
majhdhar mein naiyaa dole to majhi paar lagaye
maajhi jo naav duboe use kaun bachae ?
chingari .. hmm hmm hmm (my fav antra of the song)

i feel like doing something to just .... (don't know what to say) (kinda frustrated ... :( )

i feel like i am angry on my own life ... or maybe -- ya, i think it's myself -- i am angry on myself -- for not being able to move the (my) life to the direction i should have or whatever

being weak is a sin
-- (in some foren movie and claymore)

for doing what i should have , what i could have done , and what i have no idea of now coz i didn't do anything .... i am too angry on myself -- or is it just my frustration that is taking it's toll on me ... i fell restless or maybe just frustrated .... yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

could have put more a's but what's the point and ... la lal la la la .... whatever