The lost thoughts...

Let me llok at the thoughts I have been having from the last two three months or more -- mba/gre/job fight, what do I want?, what to download next ? -- what my life has for me ahead... would I be happy in a situation like this or that ??? -- and most of the thoughts didn't end in a good or happy ending -- mostly like these thoughts hav ebecome something that I feel like I have wasted my time with -- I have wasted my entire life and so am I going to do with the rest of my life ... -- no job/ms/mba will change my life -- if something like that happens - that will be my luck -- i can have a mast life in mba and a useless one in ms in algorithms and a boring one in job (:)) -- --- what can change my life (btw why do I want to change my life ?0 -- I just want to chage myslef -- I am expecting something from my life -- I am given a choice out of alpha beta and gamma -- and luck has the powetrto push me any side -- I am not saying that this is not important -- just that it is not so importatn that I make it the largest part of my life ... -- change yourself -- become who you ARE -- that's enough -- fell the pain of not having what you want -- feel the frustration -- feel the heat -- feel the adventure of doing something you never thought you could have done before -- be a kid -- you always are -- what do you want -- more money -- most certainly not -- better be heidi in the mountains than some sick lonely bastard who takes bath in money everyday -- simplicity is something that soothes our brain -- showness is something that seems to attract us -- part of jealousy / envy -- what he has why don't I -- just that felling you don't really want all that -- I don't want a big house / a big /car / having dinners in 5 stars -- so why am I looking for a job with a lot of money ?? - what am I going to do with all the money -- maybe a job where I fell good and not rich -- a place where I can be myself -- (not city?) -- I am a machine -- and htis machine is currently enjoyihng the songs -- aaina bata kaise -- arre bhai I am using the hyphens very frequently amn't I -- I shuold probably try controlling my urge to use them -- human is juat a machine who feels happy with the things he /she feels happy with -- and given them is happy -- am just saying coz ye song bada hi achcha lag raha hai -- infaact kaffi songs achche lage hain ... -- can't write wehn the lyrics are on in songs :) ,,, 

ok where was I -- hmm.. ye typing sudharni hai be -- ya changing myself -- not changing coz I am what I am -- I am not changing my nature but what I do -- my actions -- I have to BECOME what I AM (on the inside ?) -- ok -- antoher good song -- maybe ... -- changing -- --respect yourself -- and be yourself -- and respect yoour parents -and NATURE -- everything --- be disperasd in the wind like the seeds/ pollen grains -- and each the limit where you become the eind yourself ... be the way of teh world -- whatever am I saying man .. I don't think I will be able to write words properly after some thime ok ? ok no w this wind has become headached and feels likefor respecting the body it should sleep but maybe oing out for a while will suffice too , but maybe a good soothing song will also do more than good ... dkeho inhe ye hain os ki boonde patton ki .......... ok m too involved in the songs right now so i don't think i will continue this right now ok ?